Chubby day

I am so proud of myself... I ran farther then I thought I could, kept on presssing on! It was amazing, it's an amazing feeling to set a goal and pass it! Okay I didn't pass my "finial" goal but I hit a middle stone. My secret lover is becoming an obsession. Thankfully, I am praising God for HIS push in my steps. I love having something that belongs to me and me alone. It can't be taking from me, managed for me, or "CONTROLLED" by anyone but myself. So much of my life is based on how someone else is doing. I can't help but wonder how wonderful it would be if I wasn't alone in my journey. I mean I have my "friend" who loves me dearly and cheers me on. She is a wonderful person who really wants happiness and joy .. oh yah skinniness too!

Have to run the kid is saying something and I'm falling short in motherhood!

Have a "chubby" day

The Secret Lover

This weekend is almost over and another week is ready to uncover it's new "trials." Saturday was wonderful, had a great run with my "Friend" and I felt like a super star after! God is so good! Oh I forgot to mention that I'm keeping my new "adventure in weighterland" secret. The only people that know are my "friend," her husband and my mom. As for the others around my life, I want to wow them with my slowly slimming new look!
I found that this "secret" is pushing me in new ways. It's almost like I have a secret lover that I'm "running" off to visit. Today, I felt like it I didn't get a run in I was going to deeply miss it. It was almost like, I couldn't stand to be away from my secret love. I thought to myself did I just think that... that my new secret lover is jogging. Honestly if you could see my rolly pollie body you'd laugh at the sound of me saying I was in love with jogging. So as I really attempted to get a jog in today the weather was not on my side. I was even going to push my daughter in the stroller just to get my job in. Instead I settled for a workout video on demand. I guess it could have been worse, however I still do have a little flicker of desire to hit the trail. Well the kid is calling and so is the shower. It's almost bedtime for me and the kid, even though tomorrow we have no plans.

well good night to all the secrets we hold!

Hipp Hipp Hipp... O potomus!

I just love putting my swim suit on!

Friday was over all a great day.. the water park was fun. I noticed that most if not all women are not confident about there bodies. I wonder if men think this way too?

I know that my situation doesn't help... I find that each day i'm growing more bitter towards the "person" that has brought on this new desire to lose weight. I try and remind myself that this "person" isn't in the right place, but wrong or right place.. somewhere inside it must be true. Well I know it's true, I'm not blind I can look in the mirror. I see the spare tire lot I run and own around my belly. I wish I could sell it..!

I think I will go running again today... Oh yah my legs are KILLING me. As they say no pain no gain. Wait, I don't want to gain!

Yesterday's Adventure

... Before I get into the depth of yesterday's adventure let me say. I am not a writer by nature, my spelling and grammar are a poor... but this isn't about that! This is about a journey long over due.

Yesterday was a rough day, it started out with a fight (not physical) that ended like all others and was days coming. After that I had a new motivation for working away the rolls of thunder that have grown around my mid and thigh sections of my body for YEARS!

I have been semi inspired by a great friend to get the fat out! Okay I'm nearly 247 lbs of pure jelly jigglier. So I got this hair brained idea that I would go running... have you ever seen a fat person run!? Well much to my suprise, I didn't do all that bad. I didn't "run" per say, but I did jog and in total it was a little over 3/4 of a mile. Not bad for a girl that hasn't really jogged in who knows how long. You know there is a point when your mind is screaming SIT DOWN... You need water..how about an ice cream... is there a McDonald's on the way home. For the first time in my life I pushed myself a little farther then I really thought I could go. I just kept praising God near the end. I didn't realize that I had that much drive in me, of course when I stopped I thought my legs were invisible. On the way home I celebrated with my girlfriend...I bought us to LARGE bottles of Fuji water. I know your thinking, take it easy girl... don't break the bank! After picking up my precious little girl I we went home and started dinner.

I made a chicken salad ... Oh I have to say it was the best Salad I have ever had. As my daughter and I ate I thought... hum, after she goes to bed I can do a work out in demand (TV). Okay a little over zealous, I will admit. After my shower I thought I was just about done for the night.

Today is a new day and I am off to the water park for a play date. Had a solid breakfast and a healthy lunch packed.

"I can do all things through Christ"

Happy Beginning...